Well, I am writing this as a journal to document my current struggle to become more healthy and through that, a better servant of our Lord. I have failed many times in the past, but, I have decided to turn this whole thing up to Him.
Today is May 1st- I am starting in the Month of our Lady. I turn this over to her and to the intercession of Blessed John Paul the Great.
Here is the truth:
I don't feel good alot of the time. I am not one of those people who wakes up in the morning and feels great. I want to 'rest' alot. I have avoided doing things I enjoy or that could serve others because I am exhausted. That stinks.
Why I am still fat:
Well, pride for sure- I think I can do this on my own. I lack the humility to ask our Lord for help each and everyday. But, also, I LOVE food. I do. It motivates me in which other things don't. I will drive to the store to get something I want and yet, won't get off the couch to go for a walk... Also, a lot of stressors over the last 6 years. Yes that is right- SIX LONG YEARS. But more on that later.
My motivation:
Serving our Lord better in my family and friends! To be more available to others especially my husband and two year old- to keep a cleaner house and be more involved in things I like to do!
So here is the good the bad and the ugly:
I started Weight Watchers today. I weigh 237 pounds. My waist circumference is 43 inches and my hips are 51 inches. I am 5 foot 5 inches tall and am 43 years old.
Lord, I give this struggle to you. You will be the only way I every succeed. Let's do this until November 1st and see where we get.
Today I leave this thanking God for the grace of today and that I can respond better tomorrow!
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